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A hero barely holding on…
Harrison Conrad returned to Scarlet Springs from Nepal, the sole survivor of a freak accident on Mt. Everest. Shattered and grieving for his friends, he vows never to climb again and retreats into a bottle of whiskey—until Kenzie Morgan shows up at his door with a tiny puppy asking for his help. He’s the last person in the world she should ask to foster this little furball. He’s barely capable of managing his own life right now, let alone caring for a helpless, adorable, fluffy puppy. But Conrad has always had a thing for Kenzie with her bright smile and sweet curves. One look into her pleading blue eyes, and he can’t say no.
The woman who won’t let him fall…
Kenzie Morgan’s life went to the dogs years ago. A successful search dog trainer and kennel owner, she gets her fill of adventure volunteering for the Rocky Mountain Search & Rescue Team. The only thing missing from her busy life is love. It’s not easy finding Mr. Right in a small mountain town, especially when she’s unwilling to date climbers. She long ago swore never again to fall for a guy who might one day leave her for a rock. When Conrad returns from a climbing trip haunted by the catastrophe that killed his best friend, Kenzie can see he’s hurting and wants to help. She just might have the perfect way to bring him back to the world of the living. But friendship quickly turns into something more—and now she’s risking her heart to heal his.
A hero barely holding on…
Harrison Conrad returned to Scarlet Springs from Nepal, the sole survivor of a freak accident on Mt. Everest. Shattered and grieving for his friends, he vows never to climb again and retreats into a bottle of whiskey—until Kenzie Morgan shows up at his door with a tiny puppy asking for his help. He’s the last person in the world she should ask to foster this little furball. He’s barely capable of managing his own life right now, let alone caring for a helpless, adorable, fluffy puppy. But Conrad has always had a thing for Kenzie with her bright smile and sweet curves. One look into her pleading blue eyes, and he can’t say no.
The woman who won’t let him fall…
Kenzie Morgan’s life went to the dogs years ago. A successful search dog trainer and kennel owner, she gets her fill of adventure volunteering for the Rocky Mountain Search & Rescue Team. The only thing missing from her busy life is love. It’s not easy finding Mr. Right in a small mountain town, especially when she’s unwilling to date climbers. She long ago swore never again to fall for a guy who might one day leave her for a rock. When Conrad returns from a climbing trip haunted by the catastrophe that killed his best friend, Kenzie can see he’s hurting and wants to help. She just might have the perfect way to bring him back to the world of the living. But friendship quickly turns into something more—and now she’s risking her heart to heal his.
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Wednesday, February 26, 2014
Verdun Battlefield Tour, Day Two
Benjamin and I woke up at 6 AM on Feb. 21, 2014. We a little
more than an hour away from the exact moment 98 years ago when the Germans
launched their surprise offensive in an effort to bypass the fortifications
surrounding Verdun and claim the city. We showered, had breakfast, and then
Benjamin went to buy flowers.
Mr. Radet met us at about 9:40 and took us where we wanted
to go — Bois des Caures.
BOIS DES CAURES
Col. Emile Driant was there with his men on Feb. 21, 1916. In
Dec. 1915, he wrote a letter calling for greater preparedness along the battle
lines north-northeast of Verdun, which had been deadlocked and quiet for some
time but which he feared would be the site of a major German offensive. He
openly criticized the decision of his superiors to draw men, ordnance, and
weapons away from the region for other areas. He wrote, quite prophetically,
that he believed the time would come when soldiers there would find themselves
fighting for their lives, some cut off from the rest of the French army and forced
to fight by whatever means they could find to hold their ground. The letter got
him into hot water, but he was absolutely right. And the men who got cut off
and had to fight with every means available to them turned out to be his own.
At 6:58 AM on Feb. 21, Germany started the Battle of Verdun
by launching what was at that time the biggest bombardment in human history. For
the next 10 hours, they fired 808 guns (canons) as quickly as they could,
dropping a million shells on the lines at Bois des Caures, hoping to pulverize
the French forces entrenched there so that their army of 80,000 could march
into Verdun and claim an important strategic location.
Commanding from a concrete bunker (above, still intact), Driant ordered his men to
take cover and stand their ground no matter what. Hunkered down in trenches and
hidden in the abris (small dugouts in trenches), his force of 1,200 men waited
for the bombardment to end. Some were entombed when abris and trenches
collapsed. Others were killed by the explosions.
When the bombardment ended, he and his men emerged to fight,
using whatever weapons they had. A functioning rifle. A broken rifle. A
bayonet.
Surprised to find resistance, the Germans bombed again.
Driant and his men emerged to fight again.
Again the Germans bombarded them, and again they emerged to
fight, their number decreasing rapidly. But they had consigned themselves to
fight for as long as they could, no matter what their losses.
By the early afternoon of Feb. 22, lines to the left and
right of Driant and his men had broken, and most of his men were dead. He and
his surviving chasseurs were at risk
of being outflanked.
Realizing he had no choice, he ordered his men to fall back.
He then turned to help a wounded soldier — and was shot dead on the spot by a
German bullet.
Of the 1,200 men who fought under his command, only 47
returned to Verdun. But
those soldiers bought something precious for France with
their blood, giving the French command, taken by surprise despite Driant’s
warning, time to mount a defense. Had they buckled or run, the Battle of Verdun
might have had a very different outcome.
Benjamin and I both wanted to visit Driant’s grave. The
Germans buried him near the spot where he was killed. Later, the French exhumed
his remains and buried him beneath a monument erected in his honor within view
of the place where he died. Some of this men, their identities unknown, are
buried with him, and the spot where he was killed is marked with a
commemorative stone.
We walked along a trail through Bois des Caures (the Caures
Woods, as it is often translated to in English, or Forest of Hazelnut Trees in
the local dialect), all of this on our minds. Rain had turned shell craters
into pools, and moss covered the tall straight trunks of the trees. It was
quiet, so still, so very different from that morning of deafening explosions,
flames, and burning metal 98 years ago.
I had expected to see lots of people there, but we came
across only one other couple — an older man and woman making this same
pilgrimage. We visited the place where Driant was shot down first. Plastic
flowers decorate the memorial of the first hero of Verdun, looking shabby after
who knows how long. I said a prayer, a bit embarrassed that I couldn’t keep
myself from crying in front of our guide. Benjamin stood beside me, and I knew
he was fighting tears, too.
From there, we walked to the sight of his grave, a tall
white marker over a marble slab engraved with his name and commemorative words.
Together, we laid a bouquet of white roses on the marble, then stood for a
moment in silence. I think both of us would have liked to stay there a while
longer, but Mr. Radet was moving and urged us to follow.
We walked along a faint trail that crossed repeatedly over
the remains of trenches and abris to
the concrete bunker where Driant took shelter during the initial bombardment
and from which he commanded his men. Covered in moss, it looked like some kind
of ancient ruin, except that it is more or less intact. The ceiling on one side
is bowed down from a shell strike, but the rest of it stands strong.
The French who remember World War I and Verdun revere this
place. A barrier of concrete pylons is build around it, their tops adorned with
the fleur de lis. Someone had lit candles and placed them in the lookout
windows and on the overhangs that shelter the bunker’s doors.
We went inside and stood there in silence, both of us
astonished even to be there. I didn’t know the place still existed.
I touched my hand to the cold concrete and tried to imagine.
“Ninety-eight years ago right
now,” I whispered to myself, thinking of Driant, his prediction, and his
courage and that of his men.
Only the sound of birdsong answered.
CÔTE 304 & LA CÔTE DU MORT-HOMME
This is a story of two hills — one with no name that was
given a number and one that had a name that became only too prophetic: Hill 304
and Dead Man’s Hill.
After the Germans tried to break through lines on the right
bank of the Meuse River but had been slowed and lost their momentum, they tried
to break through on the left bank of the river in hopes of taking out the
French supply lines and capturing Verdun at least.
After months of trying, the Germans finally reached the
crest of these two hills, where they came face to face with French lines.
French determination, however, prevented them every from reaching the top and
taking the hills. I can’t think of any other way to say it than this: The
battle cry of Verdun — “They shall not pass!” — was in the heart of every man
who fought, was injured, or gave his life on those hills, with the French doing
all they could to hold onto their homeland.
We paid our respects to the two memorials, first at Côte
304, where one wife had added a private memorial to her husband, and then on
Mort-Homme, which has not only a grisly memorial that celebrates the French
units who won the battle, but also a memorial to those who died.
The victory memorial features a man who is partially a
skeleton holding a flag, the words “They Did Not Pass” carved below it
together with the names of the French regiments that fought there. It is a
passionate monument, graphic and powerful, that honors the victorious dead.
Mr. Radet led us through the forest toward a marker that had
a photo of what the area had looked like after the battle. You’d swear that you
were looking at a photo of the moon’s surface—not a tree in sight, nothing but
shell pits and lines that were trenches.
The French government estimates that some 10,000 bodies
remain undiscovered and buried on Mort Homme alone. Knowing that makes one
watch where one steps. How can it be anything other than sacred ground when so
many men are buried there?
As we said our farewells to the place, the sun set through
the trees, turning the sky pink. It all seemed so peaceful, and yet there is
pain in these places. Each and every hollow created by a shell explosion is a
testament to that fact.
Mr. Radet led us on another adventure, but I’m saving that
for another post, focusing on the Verdun battlefields in this post.
FORT DE DOUAUMONT
Had the French paid more attention to men like Col. Driant,
they might never have lost Fort Douaument. It wasn’t taken in a fierce battle,
though it eventually became the site of more than once brutal conflict. The
Germans took Fort Douaumont because when they arrived they found the door open
and almost no one home.
We visited Douaumont on Saturday in a freezing downpour
thanks to Stef Desprez, a personal friend whom I finally got to meet in person
for the first time. She was kind enough to take us there, as our guide had been
less than enthusiastic about visiting the site.
Benjamin had been to Douaument before and acted as our
guide, leading us around the fort’s massive exterior and narrating for us the
details of how the Germans captured it. As we walked along, bits of brick and
mortar and twisted steel reached up out of the ground at us, “pigtails” that
used to hold barbed wire in evidence everywhere, making it clear that the
fort’s slopes and top used to be covered with the stuff.
The biggest fort in the area, Douaument had been built to
safely harbor 800 men. When the Germans arrived to attack the place on Feb. 25,
only four days after launching their offensive, they found no one in the
counterscarp galleries. They walked in, strode unchallenged along a hallway,
and found only 20 French soldiers inside.
Oops.
The French had lost faith in the big forts—the wrong lesson
at the wrong time. Had they all been properly garrisoned and armed to capacity,
Verdun would have been a very different battle. Once the Germans took
possession of Douaument, they had a base where their soldiers could take shelter
and a great view of the surrounding battlefield.
They could not use Douaument as a position from which to
fire on Verdun because the fort’s guns didn’t face that way. (A smart feature.
Don’t let the enemy aim at your cities with your own forts.) So instead they
used it to store supplies, including shells, ordnance, powder, food, and a
place to treat the wounded and give weary soldiers a place to rest.
Benjamin had emailed me after visiting Douaument, saying
that the place gave him an overwhelming sense of dread. I could imagine that,
considering the number of dead soldiers entombed inside. But as we entered, I
wasn’t hit with any sense foreboding. Apart from its constant dripping ceilings
and stalactites, it seemed to differ from Fort Vaux only in the fact that it
ENORMOUS.
We walked along the front hallway, the inside of
subterranean French forts now very familiar to me. Ah, yes, collapsible
benches. And wiring for telegraph and telephone. Powder magazines. Barracks
with steel bunks. Rows of latrines that I wouldn’t use unless I had no choice.
Ventilation ducts. Water tanks.
Most of this we had to imagine, using the iron bolts still
in the brick to see where these structures had stood. The fort has not been
restored like Falouse.
Did I mention stalactites? They were everywhere, poking down
from the ceiling like creepy, pale fingers.
We passed a room where a handful of French soldiers were
killed and entombed when a German 420mm shell hit the roof, the damage it
caused still plainly visible. Nearby, is a room where some 30 German soldiers
were killed and entombed by a French shell explosion.
I didn’t realize it until later, but I’d begun to feel some
of what Benjamin described — a choking sense of dread. The farther we went
into the fort’s deep interior, the more desperately I wanted to get out until
the phrase GET OUT was shouting inside my skull.
We walked along what would have been the fort’s main
corridor and came to a wall decorated with a cross that reads, “Our Fallen
Comrades,” in German. There were plastic flowers — I don’t like plastic flowers
— and some lights that shined on a sculpture of parents saying farewell to
sons on their way to war. The sculpture was put in place by a group celebrating
French-German reconciliation.
Behind the wall lie the entombed remains of 700 German
soldiers who somehow managed to ignite some of the fort’s ordnance and blow
themselves up, setting off shells and other explosives. The explosion not only
killed those in the corridor, but sent a wall of fire through the fort’s
infirmary, where the sick and injured were burned to death. Rather than
removing the bodies, the Germans opted to turn the passage into a tomb. And so
it remains.
We went down, down, through dank, dark hallways toward the
big 400mm gun, which made the gun at Falouse and Vaux look itsy-bitsy. We also
saw the hallway where the Germans entered the fort. When we visited, a lone bat
was sleeping there, causing visitors to duck or veer sideways so as not to
disturb it.
The wash room was stalactite city, certainly not a place I’d
want to wash anything.
But at this point all I could concentrate on was keeping
myself from shouting at Benjamin to quit narrating and just get us the hell out
of there. It was utterly irrational, but that’s how I felt.
The French eventually retook Douaument, reclaiming in six
hours what it had taken the Germans six months to take. The Germans left behind
their dead, as well as carvings on some of the tiles and writing in German on
the walls as they labeled some of the rooms.
The place is haunted, a restless tomb. “Bad juju” doesn’t
begin to describe it.
I was so relieved when we left and went back outside into
wind-driven sleet. We went on top the massive fort, looked at the gun turrets,
and then I was so cold that Stef took me back to her car, where we waited for
Benjamin to finish looking his fill.
Later, Benjamin and I talked about our shared experience,
that sense of dread. We both thought that perhaps it was the last thought of
the men who were entombed by the shell explosions or perhaps the last thought
of those who saw the wall of fire flying toward them from the site of the
explosion.
Then Benjamin suggested that perhaps it was the wish of the
735 people whose remains are still there. Maybe they don’t want to stay inside
the fort where they died but wish they’d been removed from this subterranean
battleground and buried where sunlight could touch their graves. The 730 German
soldiers are so far from home, after all, many of them drafted to fight in a
war that wasn’t of their choosing.
How can they rest in peace in Douaumont?
FLEURY
There was once a village called Fleury. It had a café, a
church, several small farms, a cemetery, a school. It’s 400 or so residents
made their homes on this hillside overlooking Verdun.
Fleury is one of nine villages on the Verdun battlefield
that were destroyed and never rebuilt. How can you rebuild something that is a
charnel pit of dead bodies, mustard gas canisters and unexploded shells and
shell fragments?
Fleury stands near Fort Douaumont, and it was our last stop
on our tour of the Verdun battlefields. White markers indicate whose house
stood where. This is where the school once was. And this shell hole, now filled
with rain water, was a bakery.
The cemetery of Fleury was also destroyed, its coffins
blasted out of the earth and shredded during the 16 times the village traded
hands between the French and the Germans. Sixteen times. Now, a cross stands in
memory of all the departed who were buried and left to rest in peace but whose
peace was disturbed.
Fleury still has a mayor. The position is honorary, just as
the status of “village” is honorary. The mayor’s job is more or less to see to
the upkeep of the memorial to the little village.
France has not forgotten these little destroyed villages.
Every year on Nov. 1, the flame from L’Arc de Triomphe in Paris is brought to
the Monument a La Victoire in Verdun. On the night of Nov. 10, the flame is
carried to Ossuary and also the nine destroyed villages, where it burns
overnight and during the day on Nov. 11, the day World War I came to an end, once
known as Armistice Day in the US and still called Armistice Day in much of
Europe.
There is a chapel on site, its exterior decorated with an
image of Our Lady the Virgin of Europe, an image of Virgin Mary robed in the EU
flag — kind of a strange image to be sure, but one intended to focus grief over
the loss of the village on the hope that war between the nations of Europe is a
thing of the past.
Last time Benjamin was here, he saw a human scapula sitting
out in the open. It wasn’t there this time. Perhaps it is now in the Ossuary
along with all the other bones found at Fleury.
We walked along the paths, paid a visit to the cross that
marked the cemetery, even snapped some photos. Stef took one of Benjamin and me
in front of the chapel.
Then it was time for us to get to the train station and
return to Paris. Stef drove us there, staying with us while we waited, then
saying goodbye.
Overwhelmed by all we’d seen in the past few days — all
the death, the terrible stories, the suffering, the crushing losses, the
creepifying feeling of Douaument — I didn’t even know how to feel.
What amazed me as we drove away was how few Americans and
even French people know anything about World War I and how few actually want to
know. But they should know. Just as World War I led to World War II, it is a
conflict that is still shaping global events today.
I plan to write about this. What form that will take, I just
know that seeing all of this has put something inside me now, and it has to
come out.
With many thanks to
Benjamin for being my travel companion and sharing his passion and compassion
surrounding the Battle of Verdun. Thanks, too, to Mr. Radet for his expertise.
And big hugs to Stef for enduring the sleet and the creepiness of Douaument
with us.
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Monday, February 24, 2014
Verdun Battlefield — Day One
Verdun.
I suppose there are a lot of Americans who’ve never heard of
Verdun, and that’s sad. It is the site of one of the most historic defenses in
military history, the site of a defeat that helped to derail Germany’s military
plans during World War I, and the site of so much human loss that it defies
comprehension.
But let me backtrack for just a moment…
I didn’t know much about Verdun until Benjamin, my younger
son, who was then 8 years old, became obsessed about the French role in World
War I. He watched videos. He read books. He read more books. By the time he was
10, he was reading college-level texts about France in World War I. I would be
sitting and writing, and he would walk up to me and begin to describe trench
warfare in such detail that he gave me chills.
I put him in French lessons. He took French in school,
minoring in the language in college. Thanks to his college French professor and
a French government program (funded by French taxpayers), he was invited to
serve as an assistant language teacher in the Versailles school district for
this school year. I knew he wouldn’t be in France long before he went to
Verdun.
He has written a 9,000-word account of his visit, that you can visit here. I won’t attempt to recreate his account. His eloquence and
knowledge on this subject dwarf mine. But over the years, I’ve developed an
interest in this topic, too, because the stories he’s told of battlefield
bravery, human cruelty, and poignant survival have stirred my imagination and
made me cry. Truly, he has reduced me to tears at times telling me about things
that occurred on the battlefields of Verdun.
A quick historical overview: Germany launched an attack
against the stronghold of Verdun on Feb. 21, 1916. The battle lasted 10
horrific months. The German policy was to “bleed the French white,” i.e., to
kill as many French as possible in order to win the war.
But karma had a lesson in store for Germany (a lesson it
sadly forgot). Yes, they killed lots of French soldiers. But for every Frenchman they slew, one of their own was lost. At the end of those 10 horrific months, Germany had lost as many
of its sons as the French. Some 700,000 men were dead — that’s 70,000 a
month — while more than a million were wounded.
Verdun as a city was mostly destroyed, and the land
surrounding it was absolutely devastated, as millions upon millions of shells
had landed, blowing apart the forests, turning the land into a landscape of
shell craters, human bones, rotting corpses, and mud.
I knew I had to see this place, to feel it, so to speak. We
made plans to visit it long before I got on the plane to France.
Our visit seemed like it was going to be hugely
disappointing, as the tour buses to the battlefields do not run during this
time of year. We hadn’t realized that and were somewhat surprised, as Feb. 21
marked the 98th anniversary of the beginning of the battle, an event
that is usually marked by a ceremony. However, this year’s events were muted as
most people are saving up their pomp and circumstance for the 100th
anniversary in 2016.
As luck would have it, the woman who runs the hotel front
desk at Hotel Les Colombes in the evening and on weekends knows a man who is an
expert on World War I. A life-long resident of Verdun, Frédéric Radet is also
an expert on the forts, having purchased Ouvrage de la Falouse, one of the
smaller forts that was part of the massive fortifications of Verdun, and
restored it, turning it into a kind of World War I museum. He is also an author
on the architecture of these forts. A quick call to Mr. Radet resulted in his
agreeing to drive us around and answer our questions in exchange for a very
reasonable daily fee.
We were cranked.
This blog post will cover our first day of touring the
battlefield with visits to Ouvrage de la Falouse, Fort de Vaux, the Ossuary at
Douaumont, and Ouvrage de Froideterre.
February 20, 2014
OUVRAGE DE LA FALOUSE
The morning started with clouds and rain and a drive to a
place I’d never heard of — Ouvrage de la Falouse. Mr. Radet doesn’t speak or
understand English, and I understand a lot of French but speak it very poorly,
so Benjamin was the main conduit of communication both directions. Since
Benjamin was the one with the questions, I just did my best to understand what
was being said and to ask questions when I did not.
Ouvrage de la Falouse remained behind French lines during
the Battle of Verdun. It was used as a shelter for French troops when they
weren’t serving on the front lines and was part of a massive ring of
fortifications built around Verdun after the Franco-Prussian War.
The first thing I saw was the barbed wire, one of the
symbols of World War I. It was used to ensnare soldiers, who could then be shot
down by machine gun fire. At the forts of Verdun, it served that function,
helping to keep attacking forces from climbing onto the fort structures.
Here’s the thing about the forts at Verdun: They’re not what
you expect. Most of them are subterranean. They’re not like the forts of the
American West — wooden pickets surrounding a courtyard. They are heavily
fortified bunker forts designed to withstand shell strikes and to cover one
another with big guns. Counterscarp bunkers (or counterscarp galleries) enabled
soldiers to protect the forts themselves with anti-personnel weapons like
grenades or machine guns. They all had big gun turrets, capable of firing
shells great distances toward the other ouvrages and forts if/when they came
under attack. They are designed to protect soldiers from artillery fire while
enabling them to fire back with big, BIG weapons.
Sadly, the French had lost confidence in their system of
forts before the Battle of Verdun and had left many of them undermanned and had
even removed guns and taken them elsewhere. But we’ll get to that another time.
Suffice it to say that it can be costly to learn the right lesson at the wrong
time. Or the wrong lesson at the wrong time. Or whatever…
Falouse was behind battle lines. It was not attacked. French
and U.S. soldiers stayed at the fort, which has been beautifully reconstructed.
Seeing it enabled me to understand and better interpret what I was seeing at
the other forts later in the day.
What’s the difference between an ouvrage and a fort? The
ouvrages are smaller than the forts, like mini-fort outposts designed to link
the bigger forts together. Or that’s my impression of them at any rate.
Mr. Radet and his friends have included mannequins in
detailed uniform to help show how people used the fort. We saw reconstructed
barracks where soldiers slept four to a bunk , their kits and weapons kept at
the ready next to the beds above their heads on a system of shelves and gun
racks. We saw the collapsible benches that lined the main hallways, giving
soldiers a place to sit as they arrived or prepared to leave in large groups.
We saw the duct work that ventilated this large, underground structure and the
system of pipes and tanks that held water for washing and cooking. We saw the
kitchens, where meals and bread were prepared for 80 men a day. We saw the long
lines of phone and telegraph wires strung along the upper right side of the
hallways.
There were also latrines. The ones for the enlisted men gave
them a place to cop a squat over a hole behind a door. The officers got to sit.
No tubs. No showers.
Thinking of human waste, poor ventilation, and lots of
sweaty bodies made me wrinkle my nose, but the only smell in Falouse was a
vaguely musty scent brought on by the century that has passed — and by the
water that leaks through in places.
The captain of the fort had an office near the phone room
and the telegraph room. When you know the history of these places the way Mr.
Radet and Benjamin do, that means something. Benjamin learned that the heroic
commander of Fort Vaux, Major Raynal, had stayed there for a night, and I
thought he might swoon.
Now, it’s important to understand that the conversation
during our time with Mr. Radet took place in French. Benjamin translated for me
when I needed him to, but I also tried to join in the conversation, straining
for French words from my high school French classes. This invariably made
Benjamin grin or laugh or shake his head, as I asked things like, “How many
soldiers was they feedings here on the every day?”
The highlight of this fort for Benjamin was seeing the
intact machine gun turret that he was able to turn. These guns were made to
turn and fire where needed, and they were aided by multiple steel observation
domes where spotters could sight the enemy and, via telephone, direct fire.
The 75mm gun turret was not movable, but its inner workings
were still in place and amazing to see.
Mr. Radet showed us an outdoor latrine, one of the few that
still exist from this era. It had something special — graffiti etched by an
American soldier from Newark, N.J., who saw fit to scratch his name and town
into the metal while doing his business.
FORT DE VAUX
After Falouse, we went to Fort Vaux, which is bigger but
almost identical in its construction. Unlike Falouse, Fort Vaux was the site of
a fierce battle between French and German forces, and that was evident in the
damage around the fort and some damage to the fort. Outside, it looked like a
moonscape of craters, the mud now covered with moss and grass.
Fort Vaux had been stripped of some of its guns, so the
Germans entered the fort through its counterscarp galleries. But the French did
not make it easy for them. After a week of fighting, the Germans had only made
it a few meters down the hallway.
Standing near the entrance where the fighting occurred, it
wasn’t hard to imagine the rattle of gunfire, men’s shouts, grenade explosions,
and piles of dead and dying men as the two forces fought face to face for every
inch.
On the walls of all the forts were written something like, “It
is better to die and be buried in the rubble than to surrender.”
They continued to fight the Germans, who pumped diesel fumes
in through every ventilation port they could find. After a week, the French had
run out of water, and soldiers began to lick the walls, trying to drink the
condensation on the whitewashed walls.
Raynal, the fort’s commander, had been sending pigeons back
to inform the French command of his dire situation. Eventually, he was down to
one remaining pigeon. He wrote a desperate message, updating his commanders and
pleading for aid.
“This is my last pigeon,” he wrote.
But aid did not come in time.
The men who licked the walls began to die, their tongues
swelling in their mouths due to the chemical makeup of the lime-based
whitewash. And Raynal knew he had no choice but to surrender.
Had his fort had a machine gun turret, had it had all the
guns it was built to carry, it would have been able to fend off this attack.
However, those weapons were not in place, and he had no choice to but to yield.
As the story goes, the Germans were impressed with his and
his soldiers’ valiant defense of Vaux and gave them full military honors.
And that last pigeon?
Sadly, it was gassed. But it flew its little heart out,
arriving back at The Citadel in Verdun before it collapsed and died, its
message intact. It was named Valiant and given a medal.
Hearing of young men so desperate for water that they licked
the filthy walls of the fort and then died as they suffocated from their
tongues swelling breaks my heart. But thinking that little bird suffering due
to human depravity — gas is one of the most barbaric weapons ever devised —
flying its little heart out just to get home, not knowing it was caught in a war, not knowing
anything but that it was in pain and wanted to be home, always makes me cry.
They stuffed Valiant and put him in a museum.
THE OSSUARY
At the end of the Battle of Verdun, the French were faced
with a landscape of death. The “red zone,” the battle fields, were a charnel
pit of unidentified corpses, human bones, unexploded ordnance, destroyed
villages, and shell craters. Nine villages had been utterly destroyed, their
cemeteries blown sky high, mingling those long dead with those dead for a few
months, weeks, days.
The land was unfit to farm, and so the French let the forest
reclaim it. As you drive along the roads that cut through the battlefields, you
can see millions of shell craters in the shade of tall trees. Rainwater
collects in craters, as do fallen leaves. Moss grows on the trunks and on the
ground. Everything is green, peaceful, quiet.
Standing guard over this landscape, is the Ossuary at
Douaumont. It was built to resemble a sword thrust to its hilt in the earth.
The sword’s handle is the tower, and its hilt is a long silent chamber with a
chapel and dozens of alcoves, each representing a region or battle in the
overall Battle of Verdun.
The walls are covered with names, 4,000 names of soldiers
whose families paid to remember them, helping to fund the building of the
Ossuary. Each alcove has engraved in it the name of a battle/region — Vaux,
Douaumonet, Fleury, Côte 304, Morte-Homme and so one. Beneath those names rest
marble blocks carved to resemble coffins. It’s a touching display, but not
because of what you see. Rather it’s what you know that puts a lump in your
throat.
Laid to rest beneath those marble blocks are the jumbled
bones of 130,000 thousand unidentified French and German soldiers. Their bones
lay strewn upon the land and were gathered and placed in heaps according to the
region in which they were found.
In front of the Ossuary, are 16,000 tomb stones of
Christian, Muslim and Jewish French soldiers who died in at Verdun whose
identities are known.
These 146,000 men are a drop in the bucket of the total
killed at Verdun. They represent less than 20 percent of those who perished in
this terrible battle, a battle that raged over a very small region of earth.
Verdun, in turn, represents a fraction of overall French losses in World War I.
Let that sink in for a moment.
There are other cemeteries that hold Verdun’s war dead, some
German, some French, but none so large as the Ossuary and the national cemetery
that stands before it. So where are the rest of the dead? Where are the rest of
Verdun’s slain?
The French government estimates that at least 10,000 bodies
lie beneath the mud at La Côte du Mort-Homme, a place we planned to visit. When
shells fell, they sent up huge sprays of mud and dirt, giving thousands upon
thousands of dead unceremonious battlefield burials. They also liquefied and
pulverized bodies.
Walking on battlefields at Verdun means walking on the dead.
Periodically, a bone appears, freed from the mud by rain.
It’s placed in the Ossuary with the others.
Men fought this war to end all wars. They lived in hope in
the unendurable conditions of the trenches that no one would have to suffer
what they were suffering. And when their bones were placed in the Ossuary, one
word was inscribed above the structure’s wide front door: PAX.
Peace.
World War II came quickly enough to prove that the war to
end all wars had become the seed of continued conflict.
That alone is heart-breaking to me.
You can ponder the fact that French and German dead lie
together. You can look through the exterior windows into the crypts that hold
the bones and see what 130,000 dead men’s bones look like when their skeletons
fall apart. You can imagine the heartbreak of families who never knew how or
where their sons, fathers, husbands, brothers, and uncles died. You can try to
grasp the pain of dying by shrapnel or mustard gas or enfilading machine-gun fire.
You can try to imagine the soldiers’ daily fear.
But mostly I found myself grieving for the waste of human
lives.
Once Germany invaded, France was right to defend herself.
But in the days before the war, so many different decisions could have been made
that might have spared these men and given us all a very different 20th
century.
We lit candles at the Ossuary for the dead of Vaux, Fleury
and other sites. It was so cold inside, I could see my breath. But somehow the
cold seemed appropriate for a monument that offers a resting place to the bones
of the unknown.
The inside of the Ossuary is inscribed with words that
praise heroes, but the windows that look inside the crypts from outside the
Ossuary tell us that in war time, human life is cheap.
To me, the words “Support our troops” mean sending soldiers
to war only when it is truly necessary, which is not necessarily when our
politicians tell us it is necessary. Once World War I had begun, it was
necessary to win it. But before it began…
We have so much to learn about making peace.
OUVRAGE DE FROIDETERRE
After the sobering experience of Froideterre, we drove the
short distance to Fort Douaumont, the biggest fort on our tour. Capable of
providing shelter to 800 men, it had a turret with a 400mm gun — a huge weapon.
We were turned away by a grumpy, sour-faced woman who told us that 45 minutes
wasn’t enough for us to complete the tour and discouraged us from entering.
Mr. Radet took us to a nearby site I’d never heard of, one
that is not open, much less open to the public — Ouvrage Froideterre.
Ouvrage Froideterre was similar to Ouvrage de la Falouse in
its layout, purpose, and construction. But it differed from the other site in three
important respects: It was attacked by the Germans and was the site of a French
victory and it has not been restored. (There are other differences, as well,
but I won’t go into detail.)
We arrived in the rain and took a tour of the top section of
the ouvrage, where Mr. Radet told the story of the German attack. They’d shelled
the fort, creating a hole in the roof. When they began to swarm it, the machine
gun turret that might have repelled them was useless, as a chunk of concrete
had gotten wedged into the turret, preventing it from turning toward the
attackers.
German soldiers tried to force their way into through the
breach in the roof using flame throwers, grenades, and weapons fire. The
commander did not have contact with the machine gun nest on the other side of
the courtyard, nor could he contact the big 75 mm gun, so he asked for a
volunteer.
The volunteer was ordered to run the length of the courtyard
— that would be like running out your front door when there’s an army with
flame throwers and rifles on your roof — and run to the machine gun nest
and order them to blow the German’s to bits. Somehow, this brave soul managed
to carry out this command.
The machine gunners, alerted to the situation, turned their
weapons on the fort’s roof and began firing. Behind them, the soldiers manning
the 75mm gun saw what was happening and began firing shrapnel-loaded shells
designed to cut down the attackers without destroying the already damaged fort.
It worked, and the Germans were repulsed, their drive toward
Verdun cut short at Froideterre. A French force soon arrived and drove them
farther back behind their lines, halting their progress altogether. And the day
was saved.
Interestingly, when the Nazis occupied France, they burned
that 75mm gun but not the rest of the fort. I wonder if someone remembered what
had happened there.
After telling us this story, Mr. Radet pulled out a
flashlight and invited us to explore the unlighted interior of Froideterre with
him. In my head I was thinking, “He has got to be kidding! No. WAY!” But he
wasn’t kidding.
I took hold of Benjamin’s arm and stepped into the dank,
musty interior. It was pitch black. PITCH black. Mr. Radet was clearly familiar
with the layout and confidently moved ahead of us, the light of his little
flashlight of no use to our eyes. He showed us the place inside the fort where
the roof had collapsed and the French had been forced to face flamethrowers to
keep the Germans out. The whitewashed wall is gone there, and raw concrete is
exposed and blackened.
I thought, “OK, we must be done.” But no. He really wanted
to lead us through the place. We walked further, and seeing a little door that
opened to the outside, I saw my chance.
“I’m staying here,” I said. I crawled into that little
alcove and stayed put, while the light from the flashlight and Mr. Radet’s
voice and Benjamin’s faded away. I snapped a few photos of that front hallway,
shooting in the pitch black with a flash, and was very grateful when the men
returned and we were able to exit and go to the car.
Dark underground places? SO not my thing.
By then I was chilled to the bone and emotionally drained
and was eager to get back to the hotel for some dinner. Mr. Radet took us to
his house, showed some artifacts and books, including one he wrote, to
Benjamin, and the two spoke at length.
In an hour, we were delivered to the doorstep of our hotel.
In the span of about eight hours we had covered the ground where some hundreds
of thousands of men had died.
We went to bed early because the next day would be even
tougher. We hadn’t come to Verdun on these days by coincidence. Feb. 21, 2014,
marked the 98th anniversary of the beginning of the battle, and we
had a pilgrimage to make.
We were going to the place the battle began — Bois des
Caures.
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—Emile Zola
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—Robert Frost.
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